We have decided that we are going to try and go to Haiti over Christmas to be with our other two children.  I am missing them so much.  I look at photos of them and I can only stare.  I wonder how much longer it will be that we have to wait.  I am going to need to get Micah's passport going.  I won't leave the kids behind again.  Noah asks about his brother and sister.  He says that we have to "save our monies and dowwers so that we can go in a helwicopper" to see them.

snuggles

I awoke to my three year old son climbing into the bed with me.  I am not sure what time it was but I know that it was still dark outside.  I felt the soft, cotton like texture of his hair against my face as he slid in next to me for snuggles.  This time however, he was determined to be the one dishing the snuggles out.  I let the inward wishing that all of this goodness could be happening at least an hour later go.  I relaxed in the moment understanding that a boy is a boy is a boy... and has energy to spare.  He rolled over facing me now.  I could not see his face but I knew that he was near.. I could feel his hot breath fanning my face with each new exhale.  My little guy, inwardly I smiled.  I remembered how it felt when he was just a baby.  Noah has always been a snuggler.  My thoughts interrupted once again with Noah's next move.  He leaned up onto my chest, leaned foward and planted a kiss right on my lips and said "I wuv you mom".  My heart gushed with pride and affection.  "I love you too son".  Then he gingerly leaned over once again and said "your beautiful".  AHHHHHhhhhhh... I love this life... I love my son.

Still waiting...

I am expecting some news about our adoptions soon.  I love reading all of the updates from other parents in the process of adopting from Haiti.  I just read one which brought tears to my eyes as I experienced that family FINALLY bringing their little guy home.  I can only imagine how wonderful that was!  I think about it often... wonder how the kids will feel when they realize that they are finally coming home to be with us forever.  I wonder how they will feel when they realize that flying on that plane!  I wonder what they will think as they eat their first cheese burger in America!  I wonder how they will feel the first time that they snuggle into their beds in their own home.  I wonder how they will feel when they get to eat at the table with the whole family TOGETHER!  Father, You know how badly I miss them... You know the timing... Make us ready.